My friends and I went to India Arie concert tonight down at The Orpheum. This song gave me goose bump;
Back when I had a little
I thought that I needed a lot
A little was over rated,
but a lot was a little too complicated
You see-Zero didn’t satisfy me
A million didn’t make me happy
That’s when I learned a lesson
That it’s all about your perception
Hey-are you a pauper or a superstar
So you act, so you feel, so you are
It ain’t about the size of your car
It’s about the size of the faith in your heart
It doesn’t cost a thing to smile
You don’t have to pay to laugh
You better thank God for that
The chorus hit a spot because it had seem to be the occurring theme in my life right now. How to be a good parent? How much sweet and tv? How to set a moral compass? How to love and beloved? I feel lost and tired of not knowing how to answer these questions, and desperate and defeat at the sinking feeling accompany by the bold captions “NOT GOOD PARENT MATERIAL”.
Parenting is a tricky thing.
I found my interest in song changes drastically since I had became a parent (or since the hormonal thought started at 5 months gestation). It’s no longer about hip hop, R&B, what’s in. I was simply draw toward the meaning of the lyrics; life, our values and connection to one and other. I want to be able to sing this to my sons, and I know it’s corny but I wish they can learn the life little lesson.
Just the other day I was watching parenthood, and the title song made me pause my PVR and google the lyrics from the closed captions to this Bob Dylan song;
“May God bless and keep you always,
May your wishes all come true,
May you always do for others
And let others do for you.
May you build a ladder to the stars
And climb on every rung,
May you stay forever young”
On a side note, my church fellowship has been doing the “Nobody’s Perfect” program. Each parents share their concern and experience in different topic each session; kind of like an outlet for venting but then you often get the most amazing alternative solutions to all the dragging problem like eating to sleeping through the night. It’s about sharing and support. I strongly recommend it to all new/old parents, you can find out where it is available in your community by checking out the above link.